Saturday, February 28, 2009

Meet Little Miss Fiona Jordyn...

...our little Wheaten Scotty Dog and the
newest member to our little home.
Sweet black eyes and a black button nose.
This little creature of God brings us smiles and gives us tons of
puppy kisses. Nothing beats the smell of a puppy's breath.
A little bundle of joy.

We picked her out at Christmas and now have her home. Jordan
told us that she looked like an antique teddy bear and thought she
was the perfect dog for us....and he was right!

Now what is Mr. Duhgall thinking about all of this? Well, at first he was a bit
aloof about having another dog in the house, however I think he is quite fond
of her. Shh...don't tell him I said this, but he likes being chased by her and allows
her to tug on his beard. They will soon be the best of friends. This I can tell.


I cannot end this post without thanking you all - again - for your prayers said in our behalf.
Blogging has been on the back burner for me and I have even contemplated closing the blog. BUT, you are all an extension of my life and a part of me cannot shut this door. It would be like losing someone again. So for now I continue to move forward in little baby steps. Our pastor said our life would be a "different normal" now. Yes, so true. I have always told my children that tomorrow is never promised to anyone and to be thankful for the time we have on earth. Each day is a gift. Treasure it. Savor it. Breathe.

The air breathes upon us here most sweetly. -- Wm. Shakespeare

Heaven is just a stepping stone away. Faith pulls me forward.


Decor To Adore said...

May your new addition bring you comfort.

Rue said...

Good morning Becky :)

Miss Fiona Jordyn is absolutely adorable! I'm so happy that she found a home with you and your family and I know she will be well loved :)

love to you,

Sue said...

What a Sweetheart!! I can tell she has TONS of character!
BLessings- LillySue

Sandra said...

She is adorable Becky :)

I'm still thinking of you and praying for you through this hard time.


Vintage Whimsy said...

Fiona is too cute! I can't wait to see more pictures of her.

When we first got our second dog, Mr. Marty (our Briard) wasn't too sure about having another doggy in the house but they've become best buddies! I know Mr. Duhgall will warm up to Fiona and they'll be best buddies too!


Maison Douce said...

We would miss you terribly... Your puppy is adorable!!!!

the wild raspberry said...

what a sweetie. puppies and babies bring such joy.

If you can look at a dog and not feel vicarious excitement and affection, you must be a cat. ~Author Unknown

Whoever said you can't buy happiness forgot little puppies. ~Gene Hill

I'm glad you are still blogging...I think it is very good for the soul.
Lots of love,

Abigail said...

What a sweet little bear! We here on the road keep your family in our thoughts.

Chanda said...

She is absolutely adorable. Love those dark choco drop eyes.

OH MY #6 said...

wheaten scottie? I have not heard of that breed/colour. And I thought I knew everything!

I have a wheaten terrier. Stan is his name.

I am so glad you are taking baby steps. I admire you.

Don't stop blogging I am just getting to know you.


Omah's Helping Hands said...

Sweety, it is very understandable why blogging has been on the back burner. I'm glad you are going to continue on. We love you! And how how cute is Miss Fiona!!! Mr. Duhgall is too. How lucky you are. She is a doll!!! Enjoy

twinkle said...

Welcome, baby Fiona Jordyn!
You DO look like an antique teddy bear in the very best way!
To welcome you, fair's a link to some quotes by Winnie the Pooh:


What a little cutie pie!! Will you please give Miss Fiona Jordyn a kiss for me, I sure wish I could smell that puppy breath (;

Sometimes It's Good said...

Your new puppy is so cute! I can tell she's going to give you lots of love.
I can't even contemplate your loss of your son. Like you said he really isn't lost...just in heaven waiting for you. My parents are there too. I try to remember that all people in our lives are on loan to us from God. They belong to Him and we're just fortunate to get to share them with Him for a while.
Lots of hugs to you and your family, Susan

jane and the happy crow said...

What a sweety, she will bring you great joy and make you smile when smiles are so important. I am so glad you are going to keep your blog, let us hope that all us out here might help you a little moving on one day at a time. lots of love and hugs, Jane xxx and you are right there is nothing like that puppy smell.....breathe deep!

Wsprsweetly Of Cottages said...

Little Miss Fiona is adorable. Such a curious little face! Seems she would have a million questions if she could just speak. :)
I hope our comments on here, though a small element of your life, are something you can pull around you like a warm blanket on a cold day..and give you comfort.
We love you, Becky.

Anonymous said...

Dear Becky,

As someone who has gone through this,if I can be of ANY help to you at all, I would be so glad.
I hope you will get some counseling; just so you know that some of the strange things that happen to you are a normal part of grief...I used to end up, standing in the store, with no idea what I had come to get...or be somewhere and suddenly, I was crying again.
I know the Lord is very close to the brokenhearted.
What an adorable puppy!

Rebecca said...

Oh Becky.
She is just PRECIOUS! That face is too adorable for words! Yes, gotta love that puppy breath! hee hee She has a most sweet and special name!! I pray that she brings you much comfort and joy!! I hope she and Mr. Doogs will become best buds!! We totally understand your absence!! You just keep taking those steps forward and looking to Him. We would miss you so much if you left!

Praying each day,

Valerie said...

What a sweet precious puppy! I hope that she can bring you some solace during those difficult times ahead!

I just recently stumbled upon your blog and was shocked and saddened to learn of the loss of your son. Please accept my condolences.

I was especially touched by the photo tribute you did for your son as I am the wife of a fire fighter and mother of a 2-year old boy. I was moved to tears by the pictures of him "mowing" the lawn and playing with the garden hose; memories you will forever cherish!

Thank you for raising such a fine young man who served our country and protected our freedom.

Mumzie said...

She is so precious and sweet! I'm sure she will bring you tons of love. God Bless,

Rochelle said...

Yes, we would most definitely miss you Becky....and may I say that your newest addition is adorable...your son had it right when he said she looked like an antique! Watch out Mr. Duhgall there's a new girl in town!
Blessings to you - Rochelle

Barb said...

She's a cutie and I know she will bring you joy,may God give you comfort....Barb

Penny from Enjoying The Simple Things said...

Oh she is adorable! She does look like an antique teddy bear! You know you are really helping me make my decision about getting a dog soon....

Anonymous said...

Never underestimate the encouragement and grace your blog brings to others.

Kindest Regards, Eileen @ Star's Fault

^..^Corgidogmama said...

So glad that Jordan saw, and approved of your new family member.
An antique teddy bear is exactly right on the money!
God's blessings everyday to ease your pain dear girl...

♥ miss.michelle said...

I came across your blog about a month ago. It's lovely. I was reading some of your old posts and noticed some pictures you had took through your neighborhood, and thought WoW.. those houses look familiar. Long story short, I think we might be neighbors? I also live in Modesto, in the college area.
Your new puppy looks like my Meghan, she's a wheaten Cairn Terrier. Anyhoo...

It's nice to meet you ;)

ps. so, so sorry about your loss :(

Anonymous said...

What a lovely post. Thank you.

Denise said...

Lil' Miss Fiona Jordyn is a cutie... She will bring you laughter and joy and there is such healing to be found in laughter.... I pray you laugh a lot while you take your baby steps..... You comment on faith pulling you forward touched my heart.

Nicole ~ said...

Your new baby girl is precious!! I have you in my thoughts & prayers.


Brenda said...

Becky what a adorable puppy!!!!
My daughter Twila and I love the smell of puppy breath.I always thought we were the only ones and never said much about it.
Anyway it is nice to see you back I would miss you teribly.

AverettLadyNana said...

Little Miss Fiona Jordyn is just precious...may she bring joy to your home and all who know her. Nothing sweeter than baby kisses be it the two legged or the four legged versions. I love puppy breath too!

PamKittyMorning said...

Ahh what a sweet new baby to love. I think of you everyday xop

Lisa Pogue said...

When my uncle lost his son 5 years ago, a scraggly little dog made it's way to their home. He told my aunt she'd better take him in. There was a reason Buddy made his way to their home, according to my uncle. Fiona is too cute and I LOVE the name, Fiona Jordyn, how precious!!

Tracey said...

Hi Becky,
Miss Fiona Jordyn is precious!! I have never seen a Scottie dog that color! I have always wished I could bottle up that puppy breath is the best!!
Animals can be such a comfort to us, I hope she is to you.
Take care, Tracey

Anonymous said...

She's adorable. How is Doogs coping with the new addition?

I am glad you are still blogging too, Becky.



Esther Sunday said...

You are an inspiration to us all Becky! So glad that Jordan had a hand in the newest family member, makes her extra special. Love ya! Fancy Pants

FarmHouse Style said...

She is just precious! I hope she brings you and Duhgall tons of love and smiles:-)

I am glad you have decided to continue posting. I hope you will let this big wide world of blogging offer you what comfort it can and know that so many people are holding you in their hearts and praying for you and your family each day.


Lori said...

she is beautiful...what a sweet face:)

Lallee said...

I am in love with little Miss Fiona Jordyn. I'll looks forward to hearing all bout her antics and revelry with Doogs.

We would miss you in blogland if you left. We'll take those baby steps right along side you.


"Create Beauty" said...

What a precious puppy!

Robin said...

You will wonder why it took you so long to bring a playmate home for Duhgall! They will be best buddies. We went 9 years with one dog and got another.....Now I feel bad for waiting so long!
Puppies are one of the greatest Joys! Today I walked into Borders and smelled the coffee....I told my daughter...OH! It smells like puppy breath!
I know Fiona will bring you so much comfort...and laughter...and joy.....helping you along the way in your baby steps to a new normal.
Thinking of you so much Becky...

Sue said...

What a lovely new addition to the family. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Patina said...

Becky, I'm so glad you reconsidered closing your blog. I would miss you!

Miss Fiona is just B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L! Those eye looks so sweet! I'm sure she is going to make a wonderful addition to your family.

You are in my heart and prays!


Tardevil said...

So sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine how hard it must be. Sending big ((((((((HUGS)))))))!

Tales From My Empty Nest said...

What a precious addition to your home!! Miss Fiona is so cute. May she bring you lots of joy and unconditional love at this time when you need it the most. Praying for your family. Love & blessings from NC!

Jean said...

Becky, How precious is Miss Fiona. How could you not love her. I am sure she will keep you and Doogs very busy for a while. I am so glad you decided to keep your blog. You always bring a bright spot to everyone and you would be so missed. Baby steps and a day at a time is all you can do. I know Miss Fiona will be a help in getting by each day.Please know we will continue to lift you up each day.
Love and hugs going your way,
Jean in Virginia

Dayna said...

Miss Fiona looks like a little spark plug!I'm sure she will add much to your lives.

cottage farm villa said...

Dear Becky, Little Ms Fiona Jordyn is adorable. She doesn't even know how important she is to you at this time. The simple things, puppy breath, dogs chasing one another, lots of puppy is all there to give you even one moment of smiles, or laughter to help with your baby steps to your new normal. We all continue to hold you close in our thoughts. If you closed your blog, we would understand, if you stay on, we are here and we care.

Hugs for you. Kisses for your new little pup! Oh, my, I don't want to forget the king of the house...kisses for Mr. Duhgall too!


Rhondi said...

Hi Becky
You new puppy is very sweet. Thinking of you often and praying for you to feel God's comforting arms and his love.
Hugs, Rhondi

2 Dogs said...

Adorable and I pray he will comfort your heart and bring tons of joy to your family.


Sara said...

What an adorable little scottie! I love the wheaten scotties and think it would be wonderful to have black and "white" scotties. I have a black scottie named John Calvin Riley (a true Presbyterian). He is the best dog. He is a constant companion who seems to know my moods. I hope your dogs will bring you much comfort during this difficult time. Their unconditional love touches the heart. Your faith is an inspiration. Please don't stop writing. And, you are right, every day is a gift from God not to be taken for granted. Just breathe, for sometimes that is all we can do.


Kass said...

Your new "little miss" is so precious. Nothing like a dog to give you unconditional love.Wish they could make a puppy breath spray! And so special Jordan felt that way.Bless you .

Thimbleanna said...

What a little cutie your new puppy is! Fun puppy playing days ahead!

Ginger~~Enchanting Cottage said...

OH~~~~~ How sweet! I'm sure that Fiona Jordyn and Duhgall will be like peanut butter and jelly, (they just go together) with no time at all. I miss you!
God bless you Becky,

ThisleRose said...

I'm glad you're continuing to blog- I would miss you! You little wheaten girl is soo sweet! I wanted a wheaten terribily, but couldn't find one. I hope you'll post lots more pictures of her!


She is just precious...for sure!!!
Baby steps are perfect steps and I am SOOOO glad that you will continue to blog. You would be deeply missed by so very many of us. Have fun with your new little
Fiona and give her some kisses from me, please!!!

Elyse said...

hi becky,

i hope this little pal brings lots of fun, happy noise, and silly chaos to your home.

thinking of you and sending warm thoughts.


Michelle, All Home and Love said...

What an adorable pup, congrats!!

Anonymous said...

That doggie is so cute I just cant stand it!
Take it one day at a time and lean on each other.

cathleen said...

I don't think I have ever commented to you on your lovely blog before..but I have been thinking of you and your family. Miss Fiona is a sweetheart and I am glad she is bringing a little sunshine into your heart.

Anonymous said...

Oh Becky, she is ADORABLE!!! Jordan described her perfectly!! She is going to love her new family so much...
She is perfect - I'm so happy that you have her.
Love you,

Unknown said...

Oh she does look just like a little antique teddy bear. What a loving addition to your family!


P.S. take the blogging as it comes. We always have your old posts if your not up to anything new.

Auntie Joy said...

Dear Becky,
I'm so glad you have decided to stay with us, we would be so sad to loose touch with you. I think of you and your family daily and pray that you will find comfort knowing that so many care for you.
I love your new puppy and what an adorable name she has.

Jen said...

I love your new baby dog! What a darling addition to your home! (Can I come over and meet her sometime? Or can she come to Manteca some day?) I'm glad to see this little bundle in your arms! I hope you enjoy her lots!

Jen, Ladybug

debbi said...

Oh Becky! You go as slow as you need to with us and everything else....but please don't quit blogging. Like "Starsfault" commented you are such an encouragement to others. You at least need to post every now and then so we will know how you are doing. Also, we would miss hearing about your darling puppies. Take care.

Lots of love and prayers, Debbi

Anonymous said...

I just ran across your blog and sat here and cried over your sweet son. May God comfort you, maybe with kisses from your new furry friend.

Suzy said...

Oh, she is so cute! May she bring you lots of comfort and happiness xx

Natasha Burns said...

Hello Miss Fiona Jordyn! She really is adorable and Jordan was right about her looking like an antique.
Big hugs Becky,
Natasha xo

tam said...

Awww she is a baby doll! What a sweet little face she has! I love Weatons they are such darling dogs.
Glad to hear you will be sticking around blogland!!!
~Tam :D

Simply Debbie said...


Teresa said...

Miss Fiona Jordyn is adorable. She is in a great Scottie home!! If I were not working full time, Baxter would have a little beard pullin' playmate. Oh she is so cute. I can hardly wait to see what she does and is like.

Becky, I admire you so much. You courage and overall outlook on life is so wonderful. I am glad you chose not to shut down your blog. You are inspiring in so many ways and the blogosphere would have a sizeable hole in it if you weren't there. Thanks.

Anonymous said...

I dont have a blog , butI read so many and Ive read yours for quite sometime now.Reading these bring a certain peace , so Im hoping you blogging brings you peace.Thanks for sharing your life with us and Congratulations on your new puppy. (I LOVE DOOGIE) he is adorable with such a cute personality as it comes across here.

Coralie Cederna Johnson said...

First of all, thank you for not giving up on your beautiful heartfelt blog. Your courage gives me and many others inspiration to lead a better life. You are important to us all, probably more than you might guess!

The new puppy is so darn cute! Little Miss Fiona Jordyn has so much personality in that adorable lovable face that I just want to reach out and kiss her on the nose! So sweet!

fannipauline said...

I am so very sorry for the loss of your son. I lost my husband over 3 years ago and I am left among other wonderful things, 2 very sweet and fun doggies. They make my life interesting everyday and it helps. May the dear Lord give you peace knowing that someday you will see your son again and be reunited. In the meantime - enjoy your new puppy. Pauline Haggard

Elizabeth said...

Such a beautiful post, Becky...and what a darling little girl!

Joyce Mineer said...

Do you think puppy breath would sell in a 1.0 oz spray bottle? Obviously I, too, am a huge fan of it! Glad to hear you're rethinking closing your blog. Like some of the others, I'm just getting to know you too and would miss ready your posts... I pray that time and sweet memories continue to bring you and your family comfort.

Faye said...


GranthamLynn said...

All I can say is "ahhh.How sweet." She is adorable and Jordan was so right she does look like a teddy bear. I/we would miss you so if you didn't stay with us and give us a chance to meet Fiona Jordyn and keep up with her and the "Man Dughall". And your beautiful little home. Thank ytou for sharing with us. We are glad to see you back. I am praying for you and your family. Give Miss Fiona a hug for me.
Sherry and Daisy

Betty said...

Oh! She's so sweet! I'm glad that she's brought a little joy to your life!

Anonymous said...

Dear Becky, I continue to pray for you and your family. I can't even begin to imagine what your going through. Like you say it's baby steps and there will be days with ups and downs. I hope you won't give up on blogging because we really care about you and want you with us. We are here for you and to hopefully help you get through this. Your new dog is just precious! I look forward to watching her grow and hearing all about her.

Kim said...

Please don't close your blog, Becky! It's such a treasure! I think healing can come through this place because you have so much support here.

That sweet puppy is just the medicine you need right now. What an absolute cutey!! You make me want (again) a Scotty!

Bargain Decorating with Laurie said...

AWWWW! She is so precious! What a wonderful home she has found. You do what you are comfortable with as far as blogging. Bloggers will be here for you when and if you need us. laurie

Laura said...

Okay...I do love black scotties...but I am in LOVE with this white one.

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you decided to stay, I would miss you!

a Pocket Angel said...

Becky, What an adorable "bundle of joy"..
Jordan is right she does look like an Antique Teddy bear.
Glad to hear you are smiling.
Hugs & much love ~Mary~

Anne Marie said...

totally cute- really makes me want to get a doggy too!! we're looking, but you know it's the right one by the special connection-

she's a very lucky little pup to have such a caring 'mom'

Risa said...

What a cute babe!

Unknown said...

She's precious! I'm so glad you decided to continue to blog! You would be missed! Prayers are still going out to you and your family. Hugs!

Simplicity Cottage said...

Your puppy is absolutely adorable! She does indeed look like an antique teddy bear...Jordan was so right! I love her name! There's nothing like a puppy to put a smile on your face and a song in your heart.


Sinta Renee said...

I am glad that you decided to keep your blog open. You feel like a friend to me and I would miss you if you stopped posting. What a sweetie Fiona J is! I hope your heart continues to mend and your puppy brings smiles to your face.

becky up the hill said...

My friend, I'm glad you have Fiona to bring you joy in this season. You have my prayers and friendship. Truly you do.

Michele said...

Oh Becky ~ Miss Fiona Jordyn is just the cutest thing. I very happy she's at home with you and your wonderful family.

I'm so glad you're still blogging...I would miss you very much!


Simply Shelley said...

Hi Becky,your puppy is very sweet. I am glad she is helping you find your smile.I think of you often and ask God's grace to be with you and your family.I am so happy you decided to keep your blog. I would miss you a lot....may God continue to bless you and give you comfort day by day....


Anonymous said...

Hi Becky,
I love Fiona. I was just curious as to why you settled on a female instead of another male. The reason I'm asking is because we have contemplated getting a second one and I thought two males were better but I truly don't know!

I think of you every day. I am here if you ever want to talk. Did you see that I am COM? I am so excited.


Anonymous said...

Hi Becky,
I love Fiona. I was just curious as to why you settled on a female instead of another male. The reason I'm asking is because we have contemplated getting a second one and I thought two males were better but I truly don't know!

I think of you every day. I am here if you ever want to talk. Did you see that I am COM? I am so excited.


Ginger said...

Hi Becky:
What a precious pup, and I love her name. You are right, you can't beat puppy breath. lol.
I am glad you are continuing your blog.

Anonymous said...

She's absolutely precious.

Skoots1moM said...

Oh, how precious, Miss Fiona Jordyn is...cuddle her for me...cuddle you for me. Still praying for your and yours...

Because He Lives
(lyrics:Bill Gaither)

God sent His son, they called Him, Jesus;
He came to love, heal and forgive;
He lived and died to buy my pardon,
An empty grave is there to prove my Savior lives!

How sweet to hold a newborn baby,
And feel the pride and joy he gives;
But greater still the calm assurance:
This child can face uncertain days because He Lives!
And then one day, I'll cross the river,
I'll fight life's final war with pain;
And then, as death gives way to vict'ry,
I'll see the lights of glory and I'll know He lives!

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!

Sweet Cottage Dreams said...

skootsmom.....this is beautiful...crying now....I miss my son soooo much. I do know he is with God now...but still, I just want to be able to hug him again and talk to him to hear his voice.

Hugs to you and everyone else....I have given Fiona hugs that you have sent her way.

much love,

Red Geranium Cottage said...

Your new little bundle of joy is adorable. And I'm glad your not going to close your blog. My thoughts are with you and hoping that your hurt will get better each day.

Cami @ Creating Myself said...

I hope she adds some laughter to your days...may God give you the strength to get through them. I'm still praying for you & your family.

Anonymous said...

Becky - I thought of you as our pastor had a wonderful sermon Sunday on heaven. I know Jordan is there with a smile on his face as you enjoy your new puppy.

A puppy does bring much joy and happiness. Yours is adorable. I can't wait to see a pic of her with Doogie!!

I'm so happy you decided not to quit blogging!


BittersweetPunkin said...

Oh Becky...she sure is a Sweetie.....take time to breathe and to heal...

Rosemary said...

you puppy is adorable! We are thinking of getting megan a new puppy in a few months.
I am still thinking of you in your time of sorrow, but take joy in knowing he is with the Lord :) take care!

The Odd Bird said...

I love her name. So sweet. And yes, she does look like a little bear. You are still in my thoughts and prayers.

Melissa @ The Inspired Room said...

Miss Fiona Jordyn is PRECIOUS! Oh how Winston would adore her!! That face!!! Oh, fluffiness!

Thinking of you and praying for you, sweet Becky.

Anonymous said...

I just happened upon you from another blog. I've burried a child and your pastor is right - a new normal will begin to develop. Take care of yourself and your family, give yourself a year of transition. Cry, laugh, and know that there are many praying for you about whom you'll never know.

Heaven is a blink away . . . just keep blinking.

Mimi Sue said...

She's a doll. I'm sure Doogs will be a great big brother. Mimi

Patti said...

I just found your blog was reading from oldest to newest posts and was so shocked to read about your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

Linda said...

Hi Becky, Fiona is adorable. She is full of love and I know she will bring you much comfort and joy. I'm so glad you will continue to blog...I would really miss you. Continued prayers to you and your family...hugs, Linda

Sue said...

What an adorable dog...I hope she brings you years and years of happiness and joy!

Stickhorsecowgirls said...

What a precious puppy! Still praying that the Lord grant you and your family strength and peace in the days ahead. Blessings, V.

Michelle said...

What a cutie!!

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful little scottie
baby....You are in my thoughts
and prayers. Jeanne

Susie Q said...

Miss Fiona Jordyn will bring you all such joy...what is more fun than a new puppy? She is precious and has the most loving home. I KNOW Duhgall will be the perfect doggie big bro.

We love you Becky...know that you are surrounded by love and prayers.
Let it warm you and comfort you.


Anonymous said...

I'm happy that you're not closing your blog. I'm sure your son would want you to continue with what brings you happiness and comfort.


Claudia said...

I am so glad to see this little addition to your household! Fiona Jordyn is adorable! Thinking of you as always.

Vee said...

Sweet pup... May Dughall find her a pleasant companion.

You seem to be coping as well as one could expect. Goodbyes are difficult beyond words, but eternity is going to be one ongoing hello. You give us all excellent advice and things to ponder.

Mary said...

Oh Becky, she is adorable!

Anonymous said...

Dear Becky, I am glad you are not closing your blog, we would really miss you. Fiona Jordyn is a doll. Her eyes are so sweet. Let us know what Mr. Dughgall thinks about her.

God Bless you and your family, Sandi

Busy Little Quilter said...

She's precious!

Maria Catalina Wiley said...

Bless you Becky, hope your pup brings you both joy:)

Unknown said...

I thought i was the only one who loved the smell of puppy breath!

Louise said...

I recently discovered a quote - Life is like an onion. You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep - Carl Sandburg. x