Today I write this post through tears and with a heavy heart. My dear and sweet mother, Carol Sue, passed away last night. Though I am hurting inside, I do know that she is now in Heaven and no longer in pain.
My mother was so sweet – an artist, an incredible baker, a visionary and one of the kindest people to have walked this earth and was always smiling. She was my girl scout and 4-H leader, a Sunday school teacher, an interior designer, a loyal friend and companion, loved to camp and make meals for everyone who stopped by the campsite, and an awesome gardener. She always made sure that there were beautiful flowers in the yard and she would nurture them by handwatering each night.
She loved to send me flowers for my birthday, too. This particular bouquet was for my big 50th birthday last year. I remember how gorgeous the pink roses were and how fresh they stayed for so long.
Momma was the big sister who loved her little brother, Butch, and sister, Saundra. Blonde hair, big blue eyes and the biggest smile ever.
My cousin reminded me this morning of story: My grandmother told mom to go out and pick a tree branch for her spanking. (I don't think there is anything worse than to have to bring in your own switch for an attitude adjustment!) Mom, being the little instigator that she was, came back into the kitchen carrying a whole tree branch. Grandma could only laugh and momma was spared from being spanked.
My sweet momma……
I love you so, so much.
I wish I could have said goodbye, but I will say Hello next time I see you.
Stretch your wings now…you have earned them. God has a big canvas for you to paint on and you won’t be in pain doing so. Now you can paint till your heart is content. Be free…angel face…be free…….
Ps 34:18 The Lord is near to those who are broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit!
I love you, Momma.
Always and Forever your baby I will be….
Momma, your favorite song now plays for YOU....Bridge Over Troubled Waters. See, I do listen!
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To my friends, I will be back later. I just do not know when, but till then, I love you, too.
131 comments:
Becky I'm so sorry- I know your pain. My mom passed in January.
May your heart be full with happy memories and not sorrow
Robin
I'm so sorry for your loss, Becky!
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. {{{Hugs}}}
So sorry for your loss. You were blessed to have a wonderful mother.
Donna
I am truly sorry!
I'm so sorry. My thoughs and prayers are with you. May you feel comfort and love through this difficult time. Sweet blessings to you and your family.
praying over you and your heart...i love my mama, too ;(
Bless your heart!
xo
Dearest Miss B,
I am so sorry to hear about your mom and wish you much comfort and peace. My own mother passed away almost 20 years ago this week and I think about her every day. Much love to you. -my
Becky my heart aches for you and your family. I do understand what you are going through and I pray for you and your family. I loss my mom 17 years ago and it seems like yesterday. I am sure Jordan welcomed her with open arms. May God be with you.
So sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved mom! God bless and comfort you! Tammy
Becky, my heart grieves for you. I know that she is safely home, but losing one's mother is a great heartache. Much love from me to you and may you feel the Lord's comfort every step of the way. I can't help but think that there are joyous reunions going on in Glory today.
I am so sorry for your loss. You wrote a wonderful tribute to your mother......and that shows as a wonderful reflection on her that she has such a sensitive wonderful daughter as you. May God give you strength and peace to heal your broken heart.
Oh dear Becky, I was praying for you this morning and I guess you needed it. I am so sorry about your dear mother. God bless you and your family as you mourn her loss, and may He send the Holy Spirit to comfort you all.
Love and Hugs
Kathy
I am so very sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences.
I'm praying that you will feel God's love and comfort. May the memories of your mother put a smile on your face.
Sending hugs and prayers! Precious photo and story of your dear mom!
I am so sorry for your loss. God bless you in the difficult days to follow.
Well Becky, I just sent you an email after reading your previous post and then clicked again and read this. I am so very sorry. Mothers are...... well, mothers. Can that be an adjective, because I can't come up with a better one right now? The word softness comes to mind when I remember mine. You are most certainly in my prayers now for all your sorrows. I love you.
Laura
Becky --
I'm so very very sorry for your loss. I know how incredibly hard the new few months will be but remember all those wonderful memories of your Mom and it will bring a smile to your heart:)
Sending you big (((((HUGS)))))))))
I am so sorry for your loss. My mother too was in pain and suffering but it is still hard to let them go. My mother passed 20 years ago and I still miss her. May God give you peace and more wonderful memories like the ones you have shared today. Judy
Dear Becky I'm so sorry to hear about the passing of your sweet Mother. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.
So very sorry about your mom and it is so very hard to let them go. You do have the wonderful memories to take with you wherever you go. God bless you and your family, will keep you in my prayers...
Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss! If you need anything at all, please call me! I'll be thinking of you and your family as you venture through this difficult time in your lives!
xoxo Kat
So very sorry for your loss dear Becky...sounds as if your mother was a most dear lady....earths loss must surly be heavens gain..what a reunion between her and your dear son there must have been...you are in my prayers....blessings
i'm so sorry to hear your sad news....my thoughts and prayers are with you and all your family.
Much Love,
Emma
xxx
I'm so sorry to hear your sad news, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Much Love,
Emma xxx
I'm so very, very sorry. There are no words that are adequate. Losing a loved one is simply heartbreaking. I know your mother is no longer in pain, Becky, and that must be a small source of comfort. She will be with you always, my friend.
xo
Claudia
I am so so sorry for your loss. Sending love, prayers and sympathy your way.
hugs,
Danielle
Becky,
I am so sorry for the loss of your mother! We do know she is with Jordan and I am sure he was there to meet her :)
My thoughts and prayers are with you ... God Bless!
Hugs,
Donna
Sweet Becky, I am so sorry to hear about your mom....sending hugs your way.
xo
Penny
Becky, So sorry for your loss. God Bless your broken heart. I will miss you while you are gone. Please know that I will keep you in my prayers.
Becky , my sincere sympathy is sent to you. Along with understanding hugs. I lost my own Mom almost 31 years ago. And I still miss her today. My deepest sadness is that she never knew her grandchildren, and they never knew her. But one day we shall all have a Heavenly reunion when we are reunited in Glory! Take care, sweet friend. Your Mom is singing the praises of the Lord, along with my own Mom {{{ }}}
Jocelyn
My heart goes out to you in your time of sorrow...although you know she is at peace your heart is still heavy with pain.
Hugs,
Judy
Becky...we "out here' are with YOU and love you too. pat
My precious sister in Christ and dear friend...
I'm weeping with you,
but the deepest peace that you know where she is and in Whose arms shes held.
He's wrapping His everlasting arms around you now Becky and He won't let you go xo
I'm holding you close in heart too
hunny xoxoxoxo
In His love,
Deborah xoxoxoxooxooox
I am so very sorry...sending you my deepest sympathy..and a hug!
Mom's are such a blessing to us and you have wonderful memories of her!
Take care.
Warmly,
deb
My thoughts and prayers are with you. So sorry. Twyla
I'm very sorry for the loss of your dear mother. May her memories comfort you during this time.
Becky I am relatively new to your neighborhood. I have been enjoying the outlook of life you have...under such horrific hardship. I love you know you are a Christian and where God is in your life. I know you are crushed right now. But with this knowledge I also know God is holding you tight and giving you comfort!!
Know that those of us so far away will be praying for you and your family during this time. Know you are also being hugged by us...and we will be waiting for your sweet return.
Hugs and lovin from Texas...Cindy from Rick-Rack and Gingham
I am so sorry. The picture of your Mom is so sweet. She sounds like a wonderful person. I hope you find peace in the memories. (((((HUGS))))
My thoughts and many prayers are with you.
The photo you shared with us is so cute and the story too about the entire tree branch too.
How wonderful you were given the opportunity to love someone so sweet, caring and besides your very own mother in this lifetime.
xoxo~Tracie
I am so so sorry about your beautiful mom. That is so sad, it breaks my heart. It is a loss that, even though we know where they are, it always hurts. God bless you.
My heart aches for you. I hope there is comfort in knowing your Mother will be with Jordan. Peace be with you...
Sweet Becky, there are no words I know to help you through the loss of another loved one, but I am so sad for you. Please know you will be in my thoughts and prayers. You are so loved by so many; we are all here for you. I am sending with this note "big hugs"; perhaps it will help a little.
Soon, I too will be going through the loss of my mother. She is barely hanging on, her body will not be able to do so for much longer. I don't want to lose her, but she is ready and waiting to see Daddy and other loved ones. It does help to know she will finally be free of pain and sadness which she truly deserves.
Take care, dear one, and know you are surrounded by love. --Leslie
i am sooooooooooooo sorry my beautiful beckers.
i am so so so so sorry.
there are no words.
i am just so sorry.
she is wrapping her beautiful arms around jordan now.
i love you.
your sister,
me
Oh Becky. I'm so very sorry to hear of your mother's passing. I hope the time you'll have now with your family will remind you of her wonderful life. Sending you very big hugs.
This is such a touching tribute to your mother. I'm sure your heart is breaking but I hope you will feel God's comforting love during this sad time. It is obvious from your words that she was a special lady. Shannon
It sounds like you picked up many of your mother's traits. You share them with more people than you will ever know. What a perfect way to keep her legacy alive. God bless you and your family. Lori L
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family in your time of grief. What a funny story about your mom! I know you will treasure it.
so sorry for your loss
A loving tribute to your mother. My thoughts are with you.
Please know that I'm thinking of you and your Momma.
Dear Becky, I love you. May God Bless you and your family. My prayers are for all of your family.
Love, sandi
You know I am praying..much love my friend.
There are no words, past what you've written. Just sending love and prayers for you and your family.
I am so very sorry. :-(
Your mom sounded like a wonderful woman,
just look at the daughter she had... :-)
{{{hugs}}}
XOXO
My heart is breaking for you. I am so very sorry.
Dear Becky ~ how very sorry I am for your loss. Your Mom's talent, big heart and sense of humor live on through you. My heart is with yours.
Much love and many hugs,
Susan and Bentley
A wonderful tribute to your Mother...my heart goes out to you.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Becky. So sorry to hear about your loss.
Becky, I just talked to my Mom yesterday and heard. Thinking of you.....
So very, very sorry. This is an amazing tribute and the song really got to me. Take all the time you need.
Oh Becky. My heart was already with you after your last post about Jordan and now to lose your sweet mother. I am so deeply sorry. My heart, thoughts and prayers are with you.
Colleen
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your mother....she left a beautiful imprint with a wonderful daughter like you! Hugs and love to you and your family
Ruthie
Becky, you are in my thoughts today and always. So much sorrow mixed with happy memories. Life is puzzle. I think it's time we met face to face. Soon perhaps.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Becky, your mother must have been a remarkable women to have raised you so beautifully. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Blessings
Sheila
Becky -
I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my mom last September (pancreatic cancer) and am still struggling. Life changes. My mom was the center of our family. We drew closer together and cherish the memories. Like you, I know where my mom is and that I WILL see her again. Doesn't make me miss her less though. Remember that she is with your sweet son - and they will watch over you. (((HUGS)))
tina
tinam61@yahoo.com
I am so very sorry... I have bawled and sobbed through this as if I knew your sweet mother... It is such a sad thing. My dad died four years ago next week... and I know you are one who has the victory of the Lord inside... but life still hurts those of us who are living in it... Nothing I say can truly help, but I will be thinking of you. You'll be back to us, I'm sure... Hugs and prayers from Missouri...
Hello Sweet Becky~
Even when words seem to be so little, it is obvious reading these loving thoughts from your friends, just how powerful they are. You are in my heart, as you are in so many.
It is the love we leave behind that will be remembered, and especially how it is lived in the lives of those we loved.
You are such a beautiful example of this truth.
Many Hugs~
Dear Becky,
I am so very sorry to hear your wonderful mom passed away. I, too, lost my mother 10 years ago and there is not a day I don't think of her and my dad. Treasure all those wonderful times and know she is in a better place. Love and prayers are with you and your family.
Jan
So sorry for your loss. Feel your loving Saviour's arms holding you tight.
Dearest Becky,
I am so sorry that you are having to endure another loss so soon after Jordan. It's so hard to understand but I'm so glad we have the assurance of the place Jesus prepared for us when we leave this earth. I bet Jordan was so happy to see her. They are dancing with Jesus now.
xo
LeAnn
Bless your heart - I'm so sorry. You have had such great loss over the last couple of years. Hold on to the memories - she sounds incredible. We just lost my FIL a couple of weeks ago and it has been heartbreaking - I can't imagine the thought of my losing my momma. Consider yourself so fortunate to have had such a beautiful lady as your mom - she will be waiting to see you again someday and I bet she is hugging on Jordan. May God comfort you and give your peace.
Oh Becky I am thinking of you and hoping you are having peace in your heart. She is painting with the angels now. Love you,Kathy Sue
Becky,
You are in my thoughts and prayers! Your mother sounds like an incredibly special person and you have indeed been blessed.
Oh Becky we are so very sorry angel.....you have had so much sorrow in your life the past few years....we know that tonight she and Jordan are together and seeing the face of God...know that are prayers, our hearts, and condolences are with you.
Whenever you need us, we are here for you.....always.
With our love, Nancy, Joe, Mom and our critters
Dear Becky,
Oh my goodness...I wish I could make all the hurt go away for you...Your memories are so sweet of Mom. She was beautiful and will always be precious and live forever in you heart.
What a welcome it must have been when Jordan greeted his Grandma back home.
Heaven must have been so bright when they held eachother again.
I am here for you anytime you need me, anytime at all...
Love you and really big hugs for you and your guys.
Elizabeth
What a beautiful tribute, Becky! May your family take comfort in knowing that your mom is now resting in our Father's arms.
Blessings,
Janet
So sorry to hear this news. Thoughts & prayers to you & yours. . .
My mother passed away in May, and I still have to catch myself when I think about calling her on the phone.
You're so right - they aren't in pain anymore, we will see them again and they're with Jesus.
God bless and comfort you.
Awe, dear Becky, I am so sorry to hear of your moms passing. I too, lost my mom 18 yrs ago, and I miss her so much. I am sure your dear son Jordon was waiting there when she arrived in Heaven. You will see them again someday, but until then I hope the loving memories will help you through this sad time.
Hugs,
Debbie
Dear Becky,
I am so sorry to hear of your mom's passing. I lost my dear sweet mother 5 years ago and I think of her, and miss her everyday. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
What a lovely person she was and what a sweet, sweet picture. There is a peace that passes understanding, but it's still not easy.
Sending love and prayers
Cowgirl V
Becky, I am so sorry for your loss. Even though you know where she is and that you will see her again, there is still the pain to endure. May God wrap His loving arms around you and give you peace.
One day we will no longer have any good bye's ~ but only hello's.
With Love,
(Your sister in Christ)
Violet
I am so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful tribute to your mother. It seems God certainly did bless you in that department. I know your "hello" will be so very special. You and your family will be in my prayers in the coming days and months. Patty
May God bless you. It is a very sad thing to loose your mother! I lost mine 17 yrs ago at 63 yrs old and i still miss her very much but it does get easier,We are so lucky to have had good and sweet mothers. veronica
I am so sorry for you loss Becky. I just lost my mother this past January and miss her dearly. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. What comforts me is knowing that my mom is my personal guardian angel. Remember the great times with her and know that your mother and son are now both your guardian angels.
I'm so sorry Becky. Your tribute to your mom is very sweet. It's easy to tell that she meant the world to you.
It's hard to know what to say, other than I'm so sorry for your loss and I will pray for your hurting heart.
God Bless
You are blessed to have a wonderful mother. I love mine too. May you be encircled about in the arms of His love.
Oh Becky. I am so sorry. I hope your memories of your sweet mom with bring you comfort. Hugs to you.
Thinking of you at such a sad time. x
So very sorry to hear about your mother. I know how hard this must be for you. I still miss mine every single day and she passed in 2006. My prayers are with you and your family. Mimi
I'm so sorry to hear about the passing of your mom. She sounded like a wonderful lady and I have no doubts she is in Heaven right now too.
There is nothing like the loss of a mother. My mom died 23 years ago and I still miss her every day.
I did laugh at the story about bring the branch inside. Remember those stories and all the great memories you have of her. Share them with others and by doing so, your mother will never truely die.
God bless you!
Becky, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. May the Lord bless you and keep you.
Your sounds like your mother was an amazing woman and mother. You are so blessed
Mecky
Becky, So sorry to hear about your Mother.My thoughts and prayers are with you.
XOX
Brenda
Just wanted you to know that you have been in my heart all weekend. Losing a parent is so, so painful. Sending you hugs.
Colleen
Becky...I'm so sorry. Your mom sounded lovely and I know this time will be difficult for you. I'll be thinking of you often and praying that you feel God's comfort. Take care sweet Becky. Love, amy
Becky, I am so sad and so sorry for your loss. Your mother sounds like she was one of God's best gifts to those that had the opportunity to meet her. I did not know her but it is pretty clear the world as we know it has an irreplaceable hole in it, but Heaven has an added blessing. I will be praying for comfort, peace and blessed anticipation of seeing her again one day.
Teresa (and Baxter)
So sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you during this season
So sorry for your loss. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers!
So sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry.
Please know that I am thinking of you and praying for you.
Love to you!
~Liz
So very sorry Becky. I hope you find some comfort knowing that you will be together again.
Becky,
Your sweet mom is FREE now. Picturing my mom running into the arms of Jesus kept my head above water, and the song by Charlie Hall:
"Into marvelous light I'm running,
Out of darkness, out of shame,
By the cross, you are the truth
You are the way ...
Lift my hands and spin around,
See the light that I have found,
Oh marvelous light, marvelous light!"
May God's peace, a peace that surpasses all understanding, be with you during this difficult time,
Jules
Oh Becky I am so sorry. You and your family will be in our prayers.
With hugs,
Janelle
Becky,
I am holding you so close to my heart right now and asking The Father to grant you peace in the knowledge that your mother is in His presence....how beautiful is that? I know you need time and I will be praying for you with love.
Debbie Kay
Becky, I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your dear Mother. How blessed you were to have her as your Mother. I believe we choose our parents in heaven before we come to earth.
Love,
Maryjane
xox
I'm so sorry for you loss of your dear mother. What a beautiful woman she was. The picture of her holding her baby brother is so precious. I know for sure you will see her again. Hugs, Kathi
Becky, I'm so sorry for your loss. May God's grace and your sweet memories bring you peace and comfort.
Becky - Your Mom is in the best place ever now - in the arms of Jesus! You will see her again.
I am new to the blogging world as of this year my post will probably come under my sons email but I had to post to you.I found you a month or so ago and truly fell in love with you and your blog.you have inspired me and given me hope,I lost my 21 year old daughter in August 2011 and the pain has been unbearable.when I found your blog I knew I would live not just for me but for the memory of my first born then when I read today of the loss of your mom I knew God had sent me to your blog I also am taking care of my mom and know my time is limited with her.Thank you for continuing your beautiful post and know God is using you to touch even strangers.
having lost my dearest mother paula last february, i can totally realte to your sorrow. what a beautiful tribute to her. i love the vintage photo of her with her siblings and the song you included. my brother and i made a video of my mother's farewell at sea. she was cremated and her ashes scattered in the pacific ocean of the coast of pablo neruda's house in chile, one of her best friends. rose petals were tossed into the sea. i chose frank sinatra's song all the way and my brother chose last train home. as the days go by, you will feel your mother very very close to you, maybe even more than before. i know it sounds strange but this is what has happened to me. i feel her with me right now as i write to you.
all my blessings,
constanza
She sounds like a wonderful woman...friend, mother, sister and shoulder to lean on! I can feel the deep love you have for her through your words!
Blessings,
Carrie
Oh, Dear Becky! I'm so sorry to hear of your mother's passing! Your love for her shines through your post!
I pray for comfort and peace at this time for you and your family.
Blessings,
Shelia
Becky, Sweetheart...I understand.
Mona
Dear Sweet Becky, I am so very very sorry to hear of your mother's passing. Jordan was probably waiting for your mother with a huge smile and embrace! I know you find comfort in our Lord's promise that we will be reunited again for eternity! Please let me know when you want to get togethr again! It would be wonderful to see you, Marcia
Hey Becky, I just read this! I'm so sorry to hear of your mom's passing. I will be praying for you in the weeks to come. Take care!
dearest blog friends....i cry when i read your comments that you have taken the time to leave.
...thank you....
.....thank you....
& big (((hugs))) back to all of you angel faces.
i just wanted to leave a little note to tell you just how much your words mean to me. ..bless you..
with love,
becky
I've read your blog for a while now....I am so sorry to hear about your Mom. You know that you will see her again and I pray that is comfort to you. What a sweet Mom you were blessed with. Come back soon - your friends are here for you.
Cathy
Becky, so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Becky,I'm so sorry to hear about the lose of your mother. I think of you often and I will keep you in my prayers.
God Bless,
Ginger
Becky,
I am so sorry for your loss, but I am happy for your Mom. I lost both of my parents within 14 months of each other over 30 years ago, it is still hard.....my husband and I just lose our best friend, he was 51, only 2 motnhs to be ready for it. Just wasn't near enough. .....sadness is inevitable, but not for them ,just for us.....What a wonderful Mom you had!!!! Take one day at a time....it really is all we have...:) Sandy
Oh Becky, I've been slacking off reading post I guess, I missed this one.
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Your mother sounded like a wonderful lady. I am so glad that you will see her again one day.
What a glorious day that will be!
A BIG BIG Hug to you my sweet friend.
Debbie
ox
I have been following your site for a while. I posted a while back about the loss of your son. I am so sorry about the passing of your Mom. I too have lost my son, he was 32. My grandmother lost her daughter in a car wreck, my Mom lost her son (my brother) in a car wreck and 4 years ago I lost my son in a car wreck. All three generations. I know your pain and I agree, time does not lessen the feeling of unbearable pain. I too yearn to kiss my boy on the neck and smell only his special scent. I still grieve everyday, some aren't as hard as others. I will keep you in my prayers, Mickey
I am sending you prayers of comfort, just know that you two will be united again in the future! Read the book, Heaven is for Real. It will be a help to your healing. My mom passed almost 30 yrs ago, not a day goes by that I don't think of her, and the love for her is still as strong as ever. She is not gone, and neither is yours. God Bless You.
My dear Becky,
I had been away during this time and am now catching up with my blog friends. I am reading this beautiful blog post through my tears. She sounds like she was an amazing woman and you are lucky to have such fond memories.
I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you. ~Natalie
Dear Becky,
I am catching up on blog posts, and was so saddened to come across this one....
I am so very sorry....
(((((hugs))))
~Becca~
Sending a hug - my mother passed away on July 8th this year - I hear your love for your mother and think of you as the days move slowly on without your mother. I will keep you in my prayers.
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